Own The Moment

What up world?...this post may turn angry, yes angry I am not angry right now at all just very frustrated...the past 9 months of my life have drained my very existence...I have been tested and really don't feel the need or have the interest in being blind to reality...I don't wanna continue on living in the same fashion that have spent the past 23 years...I really wanna spend this 23rd year improving on life not staying trapped inside a bland existence of fear doubt and living inside someone else's skin...you may be asking where has this come from...well I've been driving myself crazy for the past few hours...and honestly have been feeling criticism about my recent actions and or decisions...now I feel like this is unfair and unnecessary...and its really tainted my view of life as Jon Farris...

I don't know why I've allowed others opinions or ideas dictate my life...for example even know as I'm emotionally gaining more and more interest in a particular someone my mind keeps running into circles wondering how all the different people in my life will react or feel about...why does that matter? I keep questioning if what I'm feeling is a lie...I keep asking if I should or deserve to feel what I'm feeling...the truth is I'm very excited about this year in front of e and the years beyond...and that is not because I have "plans" on doing things but because I have actually products and reasons to be excited...my daughter is real and is gonna be here any day now, my music is real I have a show in a few weeks, and album completed and a recent collaboration that will be on an album from a friend out of maryland...a woman that shows me support and has become a very good friend and she loves my album she wants me to play it all the time...yet I can't accept it I keep saying its a lie there is no way anyone can really like it and why? Inside myself I know that its a classic...I know that its great music and that once I let people hear it they will be excited proud amazind impressed and I will gain fans but I'm to damn afraid to stuck in the mindset that jon farris is not what people want...

I need to just won my talent own my gift and own this moment that I believe and feel that I have been blessed with...in my blood in my heart in my spirit and in in my soul I feel like this is y time...like I have found my voice my lane my project and now the world awaits...will I show them? Will I back away? Will I continue to walk on stage afraid of what people think of my clothes? Will I allow myself to really be free? Will I own it own this dream I have? This is the mind of me yes I think this much constantly.I just really don't know how to live this way anymore its really exausting when I can't enjoy the happiness I have because I'm afraid I don't deserve it...

I must own my gift, own my moment, own my happiness...june 1st I begin to show my ownership...right now I take ownership

Oh Yes...It Begins...

So what's up world?!...surprised to see me blogging again? Yea I don't blame you I'm usually very slacking on my blog game...honestly the only time I blog is when I'm really bored but this time I will blog to update you on all that is jon farris...

So I went back to the studio and finished up the recording for my album at least for now...I still wonder if I should add something to it or even replace something...honestly listening to it now I'm really not only happy but satisfied and excited about the way it turned out...of course I have another session or 2 to go back and redo a few mixes volumes effects things of that nature but thus far the album is epic, emotional and legendary...

I have thought and thought and thought constantly about how can I market myself and my music in order to get attention and a buzz around the release of my album...so while taking a dump this morning it hit me...like a ton of bricks it just fell on me and made perfect sense...so I have a plan that I need to go over with my team...actually I have to assemble a team...and then go over things with them...but in my mind it makes perfect sense and will work...I'm not selling you a gimmick no I'm providing great music, providing hope and understanding...and the fact that my baby is due in 11 days I really am more motivated and inspired to make a better way...

Have you all checked out my youtube? Yea I didn't think so because I haven't really promoted it! That's why todays photoshoot is so important because I need good new pictures to put things together and I really need to put together flyers for the upcoming massive show with EZ on the 11th of june...that's gonna be bananas...

I am going to begin a documentary tonight that's right a documentary that I want to upload an episode to youtube weekly...yes big plans this year and I promise you this is not just talk it is my goals and I will do all that I have to to accomplish them...this is Jon Farris welcome to my world

Dying Phone Means Time For A New Post

What up world? How have you been in my absence?...fine I'm sure at this point I do not offer you much daily but that will all soon change...I was in the studio yesterday, yes I was a nice 5 hour session and recorded what will be my very first official studio album...the music is incredible...I will not release the title or the concept or any songs or info cover art nothing until I have personally decided the album is complete...what I have to do is listen through the tracklist I have now and see how it makes me feel...if and only if I feel like the album is complete I will unleash a mass amount of info...but for now I'm keeping this one to myself...

Photo shoot friday! Finally I'm taking the initiative to get actual legit pictures not just random performance pics I really can't wait...hopefully I can let ryan design hear some of the album so he can have inspiration when we start making the cover...I have an idea of what I wanna do but not officially sure...this album is so crazy! I can't get over it, its actually all that I wanted it to be...yes I'm teasing you...

Ok the reason for the post...my phone battery is terrible the battery drains so quickly I don't understand it I guess its getting old...I wasn't able to charge my phone last night so its really moments away from death...I'm gonna go on my lunch and see about getting a new one from radio shack if I can get one free then yes sign me up for that...I really deserve a new blackberry especially with my new album, new music, new attitude, new woman? And a baby very close to being here I should have that one last investment...its gonna be a good look I gotta call them to make sure that I can get my phone in a half hour that's all the time I have for lunch and I really want this phone like right now...well I will let you know how everything turns out...this summer is gonna be bananas that's all I know...

Reflection...May 8th

What up world...may 8th 2010...seems so odd to be sitting here on the steps of my best friend...dressed and ready to go on what I guess you would call a date...but to me just a meeting of 2 friends...working on my very first official legit studio album (still independent don't worry)...just days away from the birth of my first child a beautiful baby girl...performances what seem to be all the time now...and crazy love growing more and more with every piece of music that I release or every show that I do...and the most amazing part about it is for the first time in my life I'm accepting good things...I'm accepting the fact that people really do like my music that I jon farris am talented and work hard to make the best music I can make and I deserve love for it...I deserve a fan base, I deserve to make this album...I really am enjoying life right now...but reflecting on last night I really really know what I must do, I must own my music, I must own my time I must unleash the fury that is me...I really go on stage nervous wondering what people will say or do when they hear me...I really don't focus on the music I don't really get down and just unleash my belief in what in saying and that doesn't allow me to care free perform and I really wonder how I'm gonna do that...last nights show was titled hello/goodbye because I was saying goodbye to the old hello to the new and now its on to the new...I'm working on a new setlist new music and new identity...new marketing plan, new online pages, trust me this is my time whether you say so or not I'm taking ownership of me and unleashing this gift I have to the world...

Inspiration In Others Not Envy

to often in the music industry artist envy others for there success...especially rao if you rap and someone you dont like is getting more "shine" than you, its your job to break that person down and try to take away there "shine"...well not me i find myself now inspired by both those i like and those i dislike...as an artist to see soemone else make it inspires me that i have to work even harder to reach that point and beyond...and if im not a fan of that person or i think im musically better...and these videos are actually artists im big fans of and it makes me wanna step my game up watching them perform...